I hope you two are doing good. I wanted you to know I have an award for you! http://bit.ly/dpKQLD
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Cassie…To start off you are a wickedly talented writer… I have to be up for work in umm… 3 hours but I could not stop reading. You are super funny, you made me really feel and relate to what you were going through, which is a sure sign of your amazing talent (not that anyone that knows you doubted your talents for a minute). I am so happy that you have allowed us go through this journey with you. I see a very bright future ahead of you. I am sorry you are having a hard time right now but know nothing you are doing is making you less of a mom to Cruz. I know it is hard to walk away sometime, I truly feel you on that but I also know that sometimes you have to. It does not make you less of a woman or mother. Just know (and I hate hearing this when I am going through tough times but I will pass along the words anyways) that everything happens for a reason and the lessons we go through in life are sometimes hard and hurt but they make us stronger. Just know all of this is just making you a stronger and better mom for Cruz and he loves you no matter what and one day he will know everything you have done was because you loved him unconditionally. Trust yourself because you are a smart woman and wonderful mom… and I know I am far away and maybe cannot relate to everything that you are going through but I am only a phone call away. Any time day or nite I am here for you… to listen to you or give advice or just to say what the F.U.C.K… I love you girly and you are doing such an amazing job as a mother. I am so proud of you… I only hope that if I am blessed to be a mom one day that I will be half as amazing as you are… I love you… hugs and kisses to you and cruz…xoxo Amber
Amber, Thank you so much for reading. I love that I can use this blog as a platform to reach out to others and be able to get reassurance and reinforcement from the people I love, even if they are hundreds of miles away! I am working so hard to keep my chin up and it honestly helps so much to hear that you are out there pulling for us. Walking away from my relationship with Cruz's papa is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, and though I might never know for sure wether or not I made the right decision, I can only hope and pray that things will play out right. Its comforting to know that I've been blessed enough to share this journey with you and with everyone else who is along for the ride. Thank you for the kind words, I love you, and I can't wait to one day share all the beautiful, amazing, terrifying and humbling moments of motherhood with you.