Gone So Long

I hate that I have been inconsistant with my posts lately.

I have been really, super busy settling into a new life.

I have been hesitant to announce it on my blog because this space has seen me go through so many ups and downs. It has watched me fall apart, wallow in despair, pick myself up and begin again.

And now there is another new beginning.

Its been a few months now and I feel solid enough to announce to the blogosphere....

Papa and I have reconciled.

We are back together and loving our new life with our amazing son. Its been empowering and scary and encouraging and intimidating and easy and hard to start to live as our own family.

I wont try to pretend that we are perfect or that problems have magically disappeared, but we have been working so hard to create a functioning and happy relationship. We council, we Church, We pray, We read. Anything that we think can strengthen or better our relationship, we are doing it.

And things are going fantastic.

We, of course, have had little hiccups, but we have been able to work and talk through them in a way that we never have before.

I am ecstatic about our new life. I have my love back. I never, ever have to leave my little love again. Our life is beautiful. Messy, real, chaotic but beautiful.